Ugh.

Stop looking for excuses to get out of doing something you're afraid of. Stop pretending that you're better than everyone else because God loves you. Stop being so damn self-righteous, like you know everything and you're some benevolent entity who is kind enough to deign to associate with us and explain these inexplicably deep thoughts of yours to lesser beings.

Yes, believing in God is good. Yes, God will fix things and make you better. Yes, God is important and you should feel honored that he loves you.

But that doesn't mean you're entitled to be overbearing to people who can't understand it yet. Even if you think you're helping, even if you're sincerely trying to help, you're just scaring us away. It doesn't mean that you can do whatever you want and believe that God will take care of you no matter what. It doesn't mean that you should take every little thing that happens as a sign. It doesn't mean that you should blindly do whatever you feel is 'right' without weighing the consequences.

Trusting God goes both ways. God will look out for you if you look out for yourself and for him. He might not always give you a clear path, he might make things hard sometimes, but if you really think that not doing anything is the best way to get anything done, you're wrong. The only thing you'll do is make the situation worse; you'll end up hurting more for it.

Trust God, but trust yourself too. Trust others who know what they're doing even if you're not so sure just because you don't understand it yourself. God gave you a brain so you can use it; it should be clear at this point that you can't understand everything, that's why you believe in God, right? If he didn't mean for you to rationalize situations, if he didn't mean for you to make decisions on your own, he wouldn't have given you the opportunity to do so.

I think this is why I have so much trouble with truly believing in God. There are so many people who use God as an excuse to get out of doing things, an excuse to feel better than other people. I appreciate those who are solid enough in their faith to show it without being embarrassed; I wish I was that way. But to be honest, it's just obnoxious and stupid to try to force your faith on other people, even those who want to learn about it and want to believe strongly themselves. On the contrary, it's probably more counterproductive than simply sitting there and passively showing your faith. Just live the way you think God would want you to, and you'll do more to convince other people than you ever would by proselytizing and trying to make them believe. There are more dimensions to faith than you think, there are more ways to approach belief and ways to 'fix' the insecurities of others. Don't just assume you're right, don't just blindly follow what you feel is easiest. You just look like an idiot. You just make me sick.


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On rereading this, I don't know how much sense I made; there's two separate thoughts and they kind of got mixed together. I'm pissed off and so drugged up right now that I don't even remember the last 36 or so hours with any semblance of accuracy. Don't expect me to be coherent; it isn't going to happen.

All You Need is Love

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy.
There's nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be in time
It's easy.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
There's nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
All you need is love (all together now)
All you need is love (everybody)
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.